Change

My, how life changes in an instant. I think I have learned this in a few big ways through out the years...

In as long as it takes to get a phone call, BAM- life was changed:
"Becky, you have to have brain surgery..."

In as long as it takes to hear a word from the Lord, BAM- life was changed:

"Becky, move away from all that you know. Move to Phoenix."

In as long as it takes to read an e-mail, BAM- life was changed:

"Becky, Its too dangerous right now in the city we were going to send you to for a year of your life, and its only going to get worse in the near future. You can't go."

Most recently (but perhaps not as dramatically ;) ), life has changed again. Two weeks ago I was living at home with my parents, and had no job in sight. Since then, I have moved out, and am working full time. I have definitely swung into a new phase of life; one that is much more busy, one that flies by, one with loads more people, one in which it is easy to GO GO GO until I drop. I've yet to establish my own routine, and I think I am paying for it a bit. Im not sure if its because I have gone until I literally dropped, or if I just caught a little cold, but this cold has been used for the good (screw you, satan). It's showing me already that I am going to need lots more discipline if I'm going to do this thing well. It has shown me that I really need to pay even more attention to what my body is telling me. Its showing me that, as Nik talked about last week, in a season of fruitfulness, rest seems almost even more important than before- I need rest to be sustained! It's shown me that even though many of the people who I love most in life may be in the next room, and I may want to be in there more than I could imagine, I still need to go to bed. Its shown me that its ok to say, "I need to go home and rest. I will be back tomorrow." I'm learning that even though I may want to go into the other room and chill with whoever is there, I still need some time alone to collect myself and spend precious time with my Creator.

I think the most valuable lesson learned here is how to say, "no." When something as hugely tempting as friends or medicine is laid down in front of you, and you want it more badly than a drug addict want's his next hit (is that dramatic? baahaha), the answer (for me, at least) is still, "no." (incase you don't know, I try as hard as I can to stay away from medicine now days because I want more than anything to rely on the Lord, and the Lord alone- even when its really difficult.)

...speaking of responsibility... time to leave for work ;)